Part 1

I feel like everything that I do just isn't good enough for some people. no matter how hard I try they just still seem to push me anyway. This all started about a month ago. If I would have never done what I did I might not be in this situation. I regret evrything that I've done in my life. The only thing I don't regret is meeting Tyler. Tyler was amazing. He knew what to do to cheer me up. He was the one that I knew I could call if I was about to breakdown and cry...Now I don't know who Ican call anymore. Everytime someone talks about him or what happened when we were together I just feel like the wall are caving in, like they are trying to break me even more than I already am. The only thing that keeps me sane is my love for music. I know that when I am either in band or am listening to my music I know that I am at peace. I know that no one can hurt me. I feel stronger and more secure. Band isn't the only thing that keeps me sane, my friends help me with that too. I know that I can go to them if I need someone to lean on for help. Joey, Ashley, Zsophia, Brittney, Maya, Alexis and alot of other people are always there for me. I'm glad that the yare in my life. Without them I am....Nothing. If they ever leave me I would not know how to go on with my life. They are my strength when I am weak, they are my all in all. I hate to see people taking there friends for granted not realizing how special they are. It makes me cherish my friendship with these people even more. I know at times they can hate me and not stand to be around me but that is just the way friendships are. You just have to learn to get used to it. So now here is where my story begins. I won't start from the very beggining but I'll start somewhere close. I was 2 years old and i remember being out in the cold streets of St. Petersburg, Russia. I don't know why....I just know that I was cold, alone, and hungry. I don't know how long I was in the snow either, but I faintly rememebr a police officer picking me up and taking me to the orphanage. I spent an entire year in that orphanage. My adopting parents came and adopted me around January 7th of 2001. We stayed with another adopting parents who were adopting a boy and a girl. Nikita and Alayna.

Sorry

Hey guys sorry I haven't been posting the rest of the story I have been busy. I will try to post more this week

Part 2

Now skip forward a few months..... July 8thish. First day of band camp. I went into the band room as a little freshman who knew nothing about what was going on. I went into my section and that's when I saw him. The tall, quiet, geeky sophmore clarinet, Joey. Ok, I know most of you are like "isn't that Tyler's brother?" to answer your question, yes that is his brother. I know, it is crazy that I was with Tyler and liked Joey at the same time. I can't help it! It is what it is. Anyway, where were we? Oh yes. So we go out to the field and learn how to march different drills, found our "dot" and practiced our show. Every practice Tyler would be out in the stands watching me. I got distracted a few times and I couldn't think of where I needed to be next. When we had our breaks I would run over to Tyler and talk to him or get what I had left with him. Food, water, ect. Sometimes I would even make him get my water from the band room. While he was doing that I would stay with his brother and I would take his things and hide them. What he didn't know was that I was doing it because I liked him. Few months passed and I was still abusing Joey. Again, I was doing it out of love. I would take his music and his clarinet and I was so tempted to take his clarinet home with me or take all his reeds, but I didn't. Again skip forward to the first day of school. I was just a hyper freshman. he was a sophmore, I knew I had no chance with him. Even though i had no chance with him I still flirted with him. Later on in the year I found out he was gay. I go up to my best friend Ashley and I tell her "I will change him, I have to try. No matter how long it takes!" Everything I did, everything I wore, how I looked was all for him. no matter what I did he didn't notice me. He was to busy looking at cute Seniors. Griffin and Jeffrey. I didn't mind at the time becasue I too thought they were cute. Especially Griffin. I soon became jealous, and I'm not the one to get jealous easily. Everyday I tried as hard as I could trying to get him to notice me. Month after month. I did as much as I could. Finally at the band banquet he told me that he couldn't stop thinking of me. I was always on his mind. Then he told me that he rememembered on time at summer school in 5th grade or so. I was shocked, happy, and a little creeped out but at the same time I felt loved. I knew that I was getting closer to changing him. The more I did he started to notice me more and more. I started to get excited. Around the time of graduation he FINALLY got the courage to ask me out. There was only one problem... he also liked my friend Sam. He told me that he would only date me if I didn't tell anyone. Then he asked Sam if she cared if he asked me out instead of her. She told him that she didn't care! YAY!!! MORE FOR ME! I thought.

STAY TUNED FOR PART 3 SOON!!

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Part 3

When you love someone so much that you are willing to do anything for them, then you know it's true love. Now I love Joey, but he can be a real pain in the ass at times. Then again most men are. He was the perfect guy. He was my "other half". He was quiet, laid back, everything I wanted in a guy. I was hyper, loud, more......prone to anger at the little things in life. When I felt like life wasn't good enough he was right there to help me know things were going to be okay. When I cried, he was there to dry my tears. What I love the most is that he would never yell at me when I did something wrong. All he would do is talk in his quiet, soothing voice. When he talked to me I almost fell asleep. I think I even did once in a while. :)

Part 4

Have you ever wondered if the person you first loved and broke up with still had those feelings as when you first met? Well some do, others don't. I'm just glad mine was the few that do. (at least I think he does. Now I am not sure) It has been a while since I've seen Tyler. At first it was awkward to talk to him, then it came easier and easier. I went from talking to him for 5 minutes to talking to him for 20. I was so excited, yet scared. Excited because that means I'm getting used to him again. Scared because I didn't want what happened last year to happen agian. I wanted him to know that I am the same person that he had fallen in love with back in my 8th grade year, his 7th grade year. I haven't changed. I never will change. I just want things to go back to the way they were. I just want to know I have someone protecting me, someone stading up for me....Someone loving me.

Part 5

I loved him then, I love him now. I want to be the one he spends his life with. I love everything about him. His smile, laugh, eyes. The way he treats me is something I will always cherish. He treats me with respect. If I don't like something he is doing he respects that. Unlike Craig who I had to get mad at and yell at in order for him to understand.

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He loves me for who I am, not for who he wants me to be. I could be having a bad day, or even he could be having a bad day, and he would make me forget about everything I was upset about. It would just...vanish. That is what I love about him. He is PERFECT

Part 6

When he looks at me with his brown and blue/brown eyes I would just die. His eyes are so perfect, I get lost in them every time I look into them. I will never forget what he said about looking into them. He would always tell me that if you look into his eyes that you would turn into stone. It was the cutest thing ever.

STAY TUNED FOR PART 7 SOON!!! Thank y'all for putting up with my late entries. I'm glad y'all like this story. Make sure to comment and follow me. Also tell your family and friends about it. It would be greatly appreciated.